My father’s side of the family is mechanically inclined. One thought crossed my mind on the trip. My grandfather was a cranberry bog grower and he had his own helicopter spraying business too. As a child, I was on a helicopter with him many times. My grandmother was one of the first female pilots in New England. We have old movies of her flying. Yesterday, I realized something while flying. She never flew me anywhere. A regret of mine now. At some point, she gave up her license. She was very much involved in women’s rights in her life. My sister and I were to go to college (period the end.)
Sometimes, I think it’s some of the feelings of jealously with my brother. He had fun in high school and graduated with a D. Later, he told me that he wish he had went to college, but then he had kids. He does have his own business. My sister was the academic star of the family. I see that quality in my daughter. We never expect her to be “perfect.” She expects herself to be perfect. My sister graduated during the recession of the 90’s with a major in biology and a minor in psychology. She came home from college to no jobs and ended up working anywhere to make a living. She won third place in our state’s science fair in high school. I hear she is going back to school to become a paralegal. When I decided to major in Sociology and Psychology, she gave me her books. I am not big into science. I could barely read them. She studied a very biology based form of psychology. I also do have a learning disability, I ended up working in substance abuse and with kids. It’s also the reason, I am stand offish about taking the test to go work at the schools. Learning disabilities were just getting recognized by people, when I was a child. Some people misunderstood what that meant. It took me years to reverse the damage.
I did get time to study some for that test that I am meaning to take. My daughter was badly bullied at the city school. When I helped her, I got interested in working at the schools. English is not my best subject. I struggled a lot as a child. So test taking isn’t a strong point. When I started studying, I realized how this isn’t going to be as hard I realized. The struggle is the balance between fertility treatment and career goals. My love my job, but if we have two children. I want to provide for them. I do love what I do very much.
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