I had a good doctor’s appointment. We reviewed the ultra sound results of the ovarian cyst. Slowly, it is disappearing. The doctor got the baby’s heart beat the second the dropper was placed. I began to cry. We are almost there. So many times in my life, they could not find a heart beat. Later, I would be told that the baby had died and I was having a late miscarriage. I have been pregnant 7 times, three losses ended in the second trimester 13 weeks, 18 weeks and 21 weeks. We talked about me renting a dropper. It’s like a safety blanket for me. I am not going to use it every day and every second. Some days those negative thoughts come out and it feels like the baby quietly died again. I will be renting one this week. My retroverted uterus has corrected itself without causing any problem with the bladder.
As for my living daughter Hope, the sun was shinning all over New England. Time to complete those summer camp applications. I do not make enough money to have two children in childcare. It is looking like I may have to find a new job, find a way to work the weekends or think of something. Some days, we were almost 60 degrees. The family has lived with a driveway that floods for 15 years. We kept putting it off due to fertility expenses. I am so tired of climbing over to the passenger side to hopeful not get my feet wet because it hadn’t flooded on the other side. We are getting our taxes back and that is priority on the list for repairs.
Next week is the start of the state exams. Our state had it’s own test on paper. It was recently decided the students should take a test approved by several other states instead. The schools had to buy tablets for the kids to take the test on line. Not every child in our state has access to a computer at home. Some kids are not as computer efficient. Then, there is just technology problems. I am hoping her anxiety about the state exams is not this bad very year. Last year, it was her first time. This year, they are switching to a new test. My daughter Hope is aware she is very lucky to have been chosen to go to school in the next town over by lottery instead of the city’s schools. Some days, that 9 years old goes out of her way to make sure doing her academic best for that town. Her anxiety is decreasing.
Our new goal is to pay off the fertility bills. We are hoping to move to that the town before the baby enters kindergarten. If we had to stay in the city, this baby would have a higher priority in the lottery system since sister Hope already attends the school system.For years, we kept the house in the city to have the money for fertility treatment. It was meant as a starter home, not for life.
We also decided to go to Washington DC again for the family vacation in April. We learned a tough lesson last year about driving. This year, we are not driving there. I made the reservations yesterday.
We are two weeks before my birthday, when it was decided we should announce the pregnancy. It was not plan that way, when I announced my daughter. It happened the ultra sound was on Good Friday that year. My birthday was on Easter Sunday. We didn’t use social media much in 2005. My idea of announcing the pregnancy was lighting a candle at church and saying it quickly. I don’t like standing in front of the church.
Here is a sneak preview of the announcement for social media. Some of my relatives are harsh, I am worried about them saying something to embarrass me. I plan to tell my bosses first.
My Good morning! On March 28th 2005, I announced at age 31 years old that I was pregnant with Hope. Today, we are connecting the rainbows, children born after loss. It is a great honor and pleasure this morning to tell you with tears of joy that age 41, I am 17 weeks pregnant again after 8 long years of my life. I am ever grateful to all the doctors who work so hard with us in 3 different states to bring this little one into our lives! The baby is due on September 1, 2015. The C-section will be scheduled sometime within a week before the due date, which means sometime late August. This is a picture of Joy or Will. The names were chosen 8 years ago, when we decided to have another child around Hope’s first birthday. Unfortunately, the following happened to our family in one year 2009 to 2010 to our family our daughter Addison died from a rare disease, I was diagnosis with breast cancer and my mother died. We are so happy to celebrate the birth of this little one five years after everything went wrong to our family! These are ultra sound was taken on Feb 19th, when I was 12 weeks pregnant. I am grateful for those of you who prayed or reached out to me especially in January, when I was being treated for a threatened miscarriage. The doctors are monitoring an ovarian cyst on the right side, which does not seem to present a problem right now. Please be mindful all comments will be put in a baby book from this wall status. Let’s focus on welcoming the new little one home!