Today, I went to buy my friend a coffee for coming with me on Mammogram day. At the window at the coffee shop, I was told someone in the car in front of me had paid for my order. I wished I could have thanked the person. It was a random act of kindness.
Mammogram day is not a fun day. My friend had me laughing so hard. The conversation was being a teen ager. I usually go with my husband and shallow a Benadryl. My husband has started a new job and my friend came with me today. I had nausea for two days. It has gone away. Since I am in fertility treatment, it’s not the day for Benadryl. I did cry a little. Since I have had 5 pregnancies losses and breast cancer, sometimes, I become fixated on trying to read into facial expressions of medical personnel. Today, I went into yoga breathing after the test. I completely ignored the person, while she was looking at the clarity.
Other than infertility, cancer and two babies dying from a rare disease, my overall health is good. Today, I gave them the 3 minute basic summary of fertility treatment. I asked them about breastfeeding. When my living daughter was born, breastfeeding was a struggle. She was loosing weight and I gave up. My first daughter died a day after birth. It seems so stressful for my daughter and I. This time, I am going to push myself harder to try. It’s going to be harder. I have one operational breast due to cancer. The request is for two embryos. Twins are a possibility. Laughing, we will do the math later! I have never had this conversation before with them, so it is a sign of me being positive. We went out to lunch and had the best time. There isn’t many places to go around my Boston Hospital.
I got to see my Aunt on the way home. My cousin saw me on the way in and closed her front door. My friend asked are your cousins always so friendly. It is common for family members to be so self centered in this generation of the family. That’s the way it is. My aunt was in good spirits. She is leaving for Florida soon. Her plane comes home the day after my plane leaves for California. My friend just by being around me got to hear how complicated infertility treatment is due to some phone calls. Funny enough, I realized after shortly leaving the house that I forgot my meds in the rush to the Mammogram. I had competing issues today.
Tonight, I am relaxing. My living daughter did an awesome job on the dry run of a new routine for school. She deserves an ice cream. I love chocolate and I did well today! I ate horribly today off my fertility diet, but I survived another mammogram. I can eat whatever I want today! My daughter finished the summer program as of today at the daycare center. She liked it there. Maybe, we found a replacement for the gym camp program. Next week, my husband’s mother is taking her for a few days. My kid job goes into full swing next week. She starts school the following week.
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